So, if you follow my blog at all, you know I was dealing with a broken spirit earlier this week... After much prayer and seeking after God he has made some things very clear to me! I will share these things now... Church on Sunday morning SHOULD NOT be the only time you are in the presence of God. We should seek him in all we do! I know that I am a MONSTER to be around when I do not spend time in the word (the bible) each day. something I have been hearing a lot about since I have been away from my normal comfy surroundings is "you don't have to go to church to be a christian" well, I use to say this ALL THE TIME, and while I still do believe it is true to an extent, Church is a place (or should be) of accountability, trust, fellowship, leaning and prayer. I am a leaner and a lean-ee if that makes sense... I will lean on someone when I need to be lifted up, for example I KNOW that when I am angry I WILL NOT pray... I dont know why but its just one of the many things I am working on, so through the fellowship of attending services I have met many ladies that I can lean on in those times and I can just call them (yes from all the way across the ocean too!) and they will pray with me when I cant (or wont) on my own. HOWEVER, these women will also make it a point to hold me accountable and at the end of our conversations and them praying for me they will ask for me to then pray before we hang up... see this is something the Bible refers to as "Iron sharpens Iron" we keep one another accountable and we help each other through things that we struggle with. so I am the leaner and the lean-ee because when someone needs me I listen we pray and I will check up on them as they do me! so where you don't need to church to be a christian, you DO need fellowship and food (a message) to get you through the hard times... Well, really you need God to get you through the hard times but you need to have people that you can lean on... now I am in no way saying to rush into your local church and start spilling your guts but I am saying to find a good accountability partner and also to STAY in the word as much as you can... I was so broken earlier in the week and it wasn't until I really gave this all to God that I was able to start enjoying my time here... One big thing I struggle with is crowds and lots of people in small areas, it makes me nervous and a little panic-y. being around too many people at once, not getting any solace, not fellowship-ing the way I am use to... these are all things that send me into a tail spin and wow this week has been full of each. This is one area that I have had to completely surrender to God. and since I have, I have had an odd sense of peace come over me in those situations. Gods Lesson for me in this week is that the real battlefield is not in the church pews, it is in the every day... anyways, this blog today is totally random but I felt it needed to be said so it was... Please continue to pray for my family and I as we continue our transition.